Going on our 2nd dinner date tonite. Kinda excited yet so nervous and I don’t know why? I think it just this whole “I have to open up and try to trust someone”. It’s so hard for me to do that because I’ve been hurt in the past by so many people, that I just have this stupid wall built up and I can’t make it fall. Also I really do think I like like him and that scares me because everytime I like someone things don’t turn out so well for me. I’m just standing on the edge of the cliff too afraid to jump off but not wanting to walk back, plus I seriously can’t stop over-think things…my brain will not shut off and it is only making me more afraid and nervous. Well…we will see how tonite goes.