I was dying to
That I didn’t need
to try so hard to be perfect,
That i was enough
it was okay
Dear Ethan Janzen…
Feeling so alone tonight. Spent the evening with friends so you would think I’d be okay, but instead I felt so alone and I’m missing the one person I shouldn’t be missing. What is soooo wrong with me?
after 2 months of not talking to me, you text me because you want to have some “fun”…what am I really to you?
His problem, because I know I am good enough for myself!
My new perspective…its just easier
For some odd reason, this just seems so calming to me
I should be long over you, instead I hear your name more than I should, thanks to our friends. Youre the jerk who hurt me and then walked away like a stupid coward. You didn’t even have the decently to say a word to me, just walked away. So then why do I have such regret hanging over me all the time. I know moving on takes time but seriously I want nothing to do with you or know what happening to you. So world let me move on already!
i want to move to a small apartment by myself in a new city and i want to decide which furniture i want and what i want for dinner and whether or not i want to stay out all night and i want to travel and meet new people and fall in love and go have my own adventures because i’m sick of this washed-up place filled with annoying people
Things are getting better, I don’t think about you anymore. Sure, I have my little moments where I feel like I am missing you. But it isn’t you that I am missing. Its the feelings I had, the attention I got and the love that are the “missing” moments. Everyday is a new day. A new strength. And a new way to say: Hey, I am worth it and amazing…your lost. One day, I think I will find true love and someone who will want me. But til then, I know that I don’t want you or anything to do with you. I’m happier and better off. I rock and your will just have to live with the mistakes you made.